you're a mystery yourself

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

9:56 PM

i'm only as tall as my heart will let me be, and i'm only as small the world will make me seem and when the going gets rough and i feel like you may fall i'll look on the bright side i'm roughly five feet four

today's e math paper was okay.hope no careless mistakes (: found this on youtube by never shout never. EXTREMELY meaningful. unfortunately embed is disabled ): back to studying for e math paper 2 tml!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hf03aKyI-aE&ob=av2e

&the beauty.

6:18 PM

if my life were to be a drama serial,
it will be filmed in first person perspective,
if my life were to be a drama serial,
it will have tons of twists and turns.
if my life were to be a drama serial,
it will have tons of episodes.
if my life were to be a drama serial,
the audience will be able to empathise, feel the emotions,
tensions, dilemmas, agony
especially the contradictions, ironies.
if my life were a drama serial,
you will know who i am
for no one knows how a person lives his/her life
than himself/herself.
my life offers much more than a drama serial. peace.

&the beauty.

12:26 AM

Borrowed a book, Poems by Heart, Poetry to Remember and Lover For Ever. Came across this poem;

REMEMBER

Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that I once had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

&the beauty.

10:40 PM

1 word to describe this week! AWESOME!!
let's start with last sunday. aunt mabel and uncle kelvin arrived from HK and my family and i went to a Ah Yat Restaurant if i'm correct, at Shaw Towers. on the way from Cartlon Hotel to the restaurant, passed by a few places which hold a certain sentimental value where picture- perfect memories were created.
Friday, 9th July. went to Ngee Ann Poly for the Ngee Ann DPA Poly Experience 2010. i had signed myself up for Bussiness & Engineering as my allocated programme cluster. but in the end, i ended up in the Humanities cluster for i realised the course i'm interested is not in B&E cluster. thanks to lu jing, i managed to make a switch of cluster, else i'll be lost in engineering courses with all the differentiation and integration XP we went back to yishun via truck as lili's dad argeed to give us a lift to yishun mrt. HAHA! the ride was UBER FUN! i know, 'uber' is not an english word. it's for ppl who cant pronounce 'super', according to what the muttons from 987FM mentioned on air last month i think :D the best part of the conversation during the ride was the conversation between lu jing and zhengyao.
lu jing : ...will you, will you, will you
zhengyao : will not, will not, will not.
HAHA! hilarious!
(reason for the ellipsis aka the dot dot dot ... is due to some stuff which is purposed to be kept mum)
today went to song fa bak kut teh for dinner with mum and aunt mew from HK too. it was great. had 3 bowls of bak kut teh HEEHE. after returning back home, i threw away the old red bag i had from godma as the material is peeling due to the lack of proper care and seldom usage, which is twice XP threw away two pairs of shoes too. TIME TO GO SHOPPING FOR NEW STUFF!! MWHAHAHAHA!!
P.S. had been going on haitus for quite awhile and will continue to be on haitus until the end of Os. meantime, better cut down usage on com else really DIE!!!!
that's all for now, gotta bathe. still deliberating whether i should catch the match between spain and holland tmr morning at 2.30am since school starts at 9 tmr. HEEHE. guess ms ng isnt that bad (Y)

&the beauty.

2:02 PM

walking in the middle of the road with the breeze in your face on a sunday afternoon. leaves being carried away by the wind as a McDelivery motorbike whizzed by. back home with the windows wide open, curtains flying. outside, the trees swaying side to side. what a lovely day to laze it bed but NO! got to study chinese for tmr's paper 1 and 2 O level. gambatte for now and i can say hasta la vista to chinese =)

&the beauty.

8:27 PM

realised that listening to music helps me to score in my a math :) if only i can do that during o lvl then all A1s lerh.. sigh,this wk got many tests, today had social studies, wed's chem and english, thurs have e math.. looking forward to 23rd may 2010, emily's concert will have a chance to go and meet the rest of the trombonists :) so gotta get flying colours and persuade mum to allow me to go. MUHAHAHAHA~~ today's CNY rehersal was like == skipped e math lesson just for it,playing only 2 pieces twice.. make me lose out in lesson..
gotta chiong hmwk and study for tests. bye~

~~HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND VALENTINE'S DAY!!~~

&the beauty.

1:00 AM

yesterday had trombone outing with emily, xingqi and yinkai.we waited for yin kai for almost ONE HOUR!!no need to apologise.i forgive you XD watched planet 51 @ plaza sing.it was damn hilarious.go watch it :) after tuition and all, i msn-ed gloria on the dropping of sciences and all. here's part of our conversation..
Gloria : a dilemma is a trap!
it's only purpose is to trap u... and stop u from moving forward
it's really doesn't matter to me which choices u pick
as they are all the RIGHT choices... if ...
if... only...
if... only...
if... only... u commit 110% to ur choices!
which means... pick one of the options... and just move forward
u will realise that... which ever options u choose... ur mind will help u achieve ur goals
however , if u are in a dilemma.. and afraid of making a wrong choice
then u'll always be stuck
soo... tonight... before u sleep
just make a choice
to commit to moving forward
and to the Best Option for u!
Just surrender to the universe
and somehow the answer will come to u when u wake up the next morning
realise that... no matter what choices u make
ur family and I will be supporting u
but u have to make the choice to step forward
it's fine if u go the Poly as well!
doesn't matter anymore
ur life is what u make outta it
not whether u study in a JC or Poly
i'm from a Poly
and i deliberately cgoose to go to a Poly
and i'm happy with my choice as compare to some of my friends who are in JC
so.. it doesn't matter in the end where u end up
it's what u give of urself
and what u commit to that's important
i believer u are going to make the right choice
the best choice for u
somehow... i sense u already know what ur choices are
u just need a sounding board
me: wad's a sounding board? (lol i seriously dk)
gloria : a sounding board is someone who hears u... as u sound/share ideas with them
me : i see..
gloria: someone u rationalize with...
like u just want someone to listen to u... and to see if u have made the right decision
me: okie. thanks a lot gloria

cool advice huh?? hahas..gotta go already since it's ONE plus in the morning.better sleep so i can continue with the chiong-ing of homework :) but i doubt i can..

jia lat liao..

&the beauty.